Not to say I was always ALPHA "COME AT ME BRO FUCK BITCHES GET MONEY" guy or anything, in fact I've been pretty fuckin' beta (with alpha streaks here and there depending on the alignment of the stars and my mood). What I mean is, I've never trusted women primarily because I have two older sisters that taught me a lot about the shitty side of women (I know I know, "there's a good side?")

Also, I've never understood the delusion of "never ending love", seeing as our society is saturated with messages that long term relationships= lackluster/non-existent sex life, resentment, fights, cheating, legal/financial headaches, boredom. LTR looks like war, and why the fuck do I want to share a bed with someone who really just represents one of my biggest threats, my biggest liabilities in life?

Add to all this my own experience with relationships, lying, jealousy, heartache, rejection, narcissism, etc, and I just can't accept that notion of a lasting, mutually gratifying LTR. Forget those ones that marriage counselors talk about, you know, the ones that have books about wrinkly old people reigniting their gross flame with each other and rubbing their soggy catchers mitt bodies against each other? Desire for new lovers is always going to plague anyone in a relationship, and that constant wondering what your partner really wants or is doing, that constant disappointment, that constant hunger for excitment...can't be satiated by the supposed rekindling of a long dead sexual connction.

That was a disjointed ramble, but I think I said what I wanted to.