About a year ago i left a 7 year relationship to test the waters of the PNW. I met someone almost immediately who checked all of my boxes. I thought he was perfect, he was personable, took care of himself, funny, confident, and a stupid thought he had nice underwear, which was apparently something that bothered me from past relationships. Well the guy I was with ended up being controlling, manipulative and abusive. I ended up being pregnant. Naturally i want to let him be involved and Ihave been pretty open and honest about everything in communication with him because its only fair. Well he decided to lie to his new girlfriend that I cheated on him so it couldnt possibly be his. He also was still trying to woo me back. And my skin has just been on fire since. I dont know why I am surprised or upset by him.

So he had told me I should focus on baby and not hoeing around, if i do decide to date. Fuck him he is hoeing around and already manipulating another girl already.

On the other hand, if I hadnt moved back to my crummy home state, i would have a few attractive emotionally stable, men interested. Im not going to lie, the attention is a much needed distraction. It makes me less angry about being single while pregnant. It also makes me feel kind of empowered. Im angry i was so clouded in judgement for so long. Part of me still feels like it was all my fault how I could let it continue for months

There are creeps, and i dont even care i like the attention, i dont feed that much because obviously..

There is one i developed a crush on and my ex knew it, he would frequently make me talk about it during sex. And part of me wants to talk about it with that person but it would feel so wrong. We had chemistry and worked well together but i let my relationship lead me. I often talked about how i felt of others because Id determined that maybe I am polyamorous as opposed to monogomous. Idk its not really a practical subject.

One was someone I went on a couple dates with 8 years ago but was too dumb to realize what kind of person he was. He is going through a divorce where the woman was manipulative and its healing to talk to him because who knew emotionally stable men existed, and who knew 8 years later we would find so much common ground. The unfortunate part is our situations. We are in very different parts of the country, I the midwest and him the Pacific Northwest.

Either way its nice to dream about emotionally stable men from 2600 miles apart

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