Bottom line and to keep it short, I have a rare genetic predisposition to something that can strike out anytime and take me out. It's too tiring to go into the details of it here. I'm trying to keep it under control and everything that I've even made peace with the idea that it's very likely that I might die more or less young.

This is why I literally can't afford to have men waste my time, as it's precious as fuck. Not insinuating that any woman's time is worth wasting by these lvm, just that mine unfortunately is much more limited.

For some context, I'm 25 years old, fit and good-looking, pursuing a college education (started a bit later), make good money, speak foreign languages, cultured enough.. honestly, I'd date me if I were a man lol Although, I don't wanna sound narcissistic, 'cause I have plenty of my own flaws. I've tried seeing men, but I always feel taken for granted, the few I've tried something with so far turned out to have sex as the ultimate goal (surprise-surprise), and I ended it with them before that happened.

It pains me to say, but I'm getting a bit desperate because I realize the pool of hvm around me might be so narrow, that it's possible I might not even meet a good man before I pass. I would have loved to live romantic love and why not even get married and leave my parents with a grandchild. My departure will leave a big hole in the life of parents, as I'm the only child, so I was really hoping that I could meet someone and have my own little family that they can take a some consolation in after I go.

I'm really glad I've found this community 'cause I resonate to it on almost every level. I don't let sentimentalism crowd my judgement of men due to my situation. I have no idea where to look for a quality man anymore.

And before anyone asks, of course I would share the truth about my health condition to my potential partner.

I'm sending y'all queens lots of love!