Thanks for bringing me back to my logic and wisdom, ladies.

I have now actually considered and dealt with the fact that there is a HIGH possibility of me being alone forever. But it’s cool now.

I don’t feel a loss and I recognize how low I set my standards before. Thankfully I didn’t act on these very often but in my head, I’ve been pretty pathetic and the bar was loooow. 🙏🏻 Honestly I would much rather rather be here and alone than ever put myself in an unhealthy/self deprecating/being used position again.

I am going to continue working on myself to be the best person I can be— for myself, my child, and society.

2020 looks like career and financial goals, more fitness & health (already doing well here), more hobbies like buying my bike and camping equipment and maybe learning to climb, more travel, nourishing my friendships & making more, and volunteer work.