I'll try to keep it as brief as I can. Sorry for formatting, I'm on mobile and sorry for any grammar mistake, English is my second language.
Tldr at the bottom.
A little context: I'm 26 now, been raised by my mother as my parents are divorced and my dad has always been a non existent figure. Plus all my male relatives are as blue pilled as you can imagine. Went to highs school in a place where the girls/boys ratio was around 1:400, so the first proper encounters with the female world was when I was 21. First kiss, sex and relationship have been with this girl, this first one that showed interest in me, spent almost 4 years with her, big mistake. First 3 months of the relationship was non stop sex (pretty much vanilla sex but we were going multiple times a day), but after that it was a dead bedroom and constant fighting. Tried to break up 3 times, she convinced me to come back all of them, we were both emotionally very involved. I became deeply depressed and suicidal to the point of setting up a date. The break point was a day after many promises on her behalf of a good sex night (last time was a month before) and when in bed she turned over and said she was too tired. Devastated, got up, went to the balcony (I was living at the 7th floor) and looked down trying to get the courage to jump, while she was all cozy in bed. At that point, I don't know how, moments before jumping I got a flash of sanity and said "fuck all of this", got back into my room, woke her up, talked about what I was almost about to do and broke up with her once and for all. We talked a lot, we both admitted to our shortcomings and faults for hours and then I asked she return to her house. We actually parted ways on good terms, and we are fwb now.
This was happening 14 months ago. That day I started revising everything, discovered the dead bedroom subreddit, then the red pill and so on. I read books, blogs, watched videos like a madman. Now everything that I could not understand was wrong now became clear as day. I changed my attitude towards women overall and this changed my social interactions immensely for the better. The reason I am still fwb with my ex GF is precisely this, my new attitude makes her dripping wet every time we meet and we are doing things in bed that she would deny outright before. Fast forward to this summer, I met another girl, super passionate for me, sends me spontaneous nudes, sucks my dick and swallows every time, yadda yadda. This goes on for a couple of months.
Now I moved to London in the UK for work as for my field and career there is no future and virtually a non existent market, I've been here for a week now and getting things sorted out. The last 5 years were riddled with financial instability due to the piss poor job market
Can't say I'm broke but i have just enough to get by and I still have to watch every pound I'm spending, currently living in a shared room.
Not exactly in shape, I could use some exercise to get back to where I was at 20 (not muscular but fit), my dress game needs improvement as I dont have money to spend and I never did cold approaches even though I think I'm able to sustain a lengthy conversation without being boring. Basically I'm a complete noob at seduction game, but I'm trying to learn what I can by reading and at least internalizing the theory bits.
Now to the actual question: what do now? I'm in London, not broke but almost, red pill aware but still fighting my blue pill instincts and my room logistics means I can't bring any girl to a private place to fuck her.
I also have a couple of things that bother me: As the market job in my home country was shit, I had to resort to drawing porn to make it to the end of the month and I guess this has someway hindered my sexual desire. Don't get me wrong, I can still pound for a solid hour or two and I have no problem getting an erection when action is coming but I have much fewer morning erections and random erections during the day. Mentally I go around and I fall in love dozens of times but my groin stays dead quiet until it's undressing time and it feels weird that my dick responds just to direct visual stimulation. I suspect it is because of constant exposure to porn (as per my side gig requires), most probably low T (I had it checked along other bloodwork 6 months ago and it was on the low end of the normal range, can't remember the value but it was just total T) and in some extent the now poor English diet and lack of exercise?
What can I do to improve my overall status (economic, socially,etc) knowing that I have very limited resources and time to spend?
How can I check my T levels and have a clear picture of what is going on with me on the hormonal level without spending a fortune?
Are low T treatments in the UK that unaccessible that I need to be a woman hormonally speaking to get treated as some comments say?
Any suggestion to day/night game in London and what can I do for my poor logistics, lack of money and free time available?
Also, I got this kind of subconscious metoo fear as one fellow redditor talked about (I believe in this subreddit) that makes me want to record any sexual encounter I have in case someone tries to fuck me over, am I over exaggerating or this is a legitimate concern in a big city like London, considering the social climate around here?
Any suggestion on how to avoid being spermjacked? I always use a condom, make a knot when I'm finished and flush it down the toilet or wrap it in toilet paper and throw it in a public bin on the sidewalk when I've left.
Any suggestions, comments, advice will greatly help.
Ps: kinda of a throwaway account
Tldr: moved to London, kinda broke, very little free time, shared bedroom and not great logistics. How do I improve my overall situation and myself given that premise, get the courage to approach girls in London and get tested for The without spending a fortune?
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