I dated this girl during her exchange semester while she was in my country. I don't know how to say this without coming off as bluepilled, but that year was one of the best in my life for many reasons I won't mention for the sake of brevity. But she was awesome, not perfect, but awesome.

We parted ways on good terms. We decided to break up when she leaves because I can't do an ldr, we know where that usually ends up, and so we kept texting every once in a while and we were both clearly sad that we got separated.

After this, some shit happened over here that involved her past deeds (basically talking about how fuckboy I am and an asshole to some friends in uni she trusts and then they spread it like wildfire), and it ruined my reputation and I couldn't talk to anyone in uni that time without them being repulsive from me. We're a very small department.

I lashed on her, then blocked her, then asked for forgiveness but she said she's too hurt and needs a lot of time to figure it out, so I blocked her indefinitely and we haven't talked since. It's been 8 months. And I think it was ultimately the best thing to do because staying in touch fucked us both even more, so ending it and burning bridges was the right thing to do. I don't want her to move in my country risking her career back home and I also don't want to take a serious decision based on pussy. I kind of wanted it to flow naturally.

I went through the phases of breaking up, covid19 happened, now I started going out again, spinning plates, lifting etc, and I just got off the phone with a scholarship organization in her country. I contacted one of their top universities and they were very interested in my thesis topic and judging from how the interview went today, I'm 85% sure I'm getting there in September 2020 for my master's.

So the question is, should I attempt to rekindle an old flame even though we had a big fight over the phone? Or it's over and I should just let it go.

It is also important to mention that I played by the book ever since she left, fucked other girls, worked on my passion, became generally more attractive, but there's one thing about that girl that I can't find anywhere else in the low-quality pussy I'm getting here. Not the sex, but the personality. a very feminine, warm and intelligent person.