So to keep it short, gf slept at mine, went back home by bus with the money my dad lent me. Was supposed to give 5€ back to him but lost them. Told that to my father who accused me of lying and started a monologue on how I was worthless and everything, I lost frame (bad move I know) and yelled back at him and now he doesn't want to see her ever again (not a problem) and say he will not help me financially to move out (I'm 17). It wouldn't be a problem if I had a job but where I am, it's pretty difficult without being 18 (yes I am still looking).

Normally I maybe would have apologized but, he tried to stab me couple of months ago and while I was yelling I mentioned this event that he had "forgotten about". Now, he's all like "I don't have a son.", "I will not pay anything for him after he yelled at me and didn't even apologize" and he keeps throwing negs at me while talking to my younger sister or my mother (who is actually the one who told me to apologize).

So now, what do I do ? Do I apologize ? (I will have my exam in 6 months and will need to go away for college after that but without money it will be kind of hard) Or do I stick to my guts ?

Thank you for reading this.