I went some dates with a girl and even lost my v-card (i'm 23 years old). I only last a few minutes because a sum of some problems, mostly anxiety and too tight condom, prolly also overuse of porn/fap. After that, few weeks ago, went out another time with her, but sex was out of table because she was in her period.

After I started going out with her, I saw that she and my brother (3 years younger than me) started following each other on instagram. One day, I find his instagram open on our house PC and check his DMs and found a conversation with her, and he was hitting on her after she said she was going out with me and they're plan

So a week after the last time I went out with her, I discovered they're planning on meet each other. I feel so fucking cheated on 'cause I thought at least my brother would never do anything like it. I got more invested on her than I should, but I though she wouldn't do something like that 'cause she also has a sister.

Pretty harsh AWALT experience, not only women but also my blood brother that I couldn't do anything bad to him. I having a hard time moving on. I ghosted her, and haven't said anything to my brother yet but I'm thinking about kicking his ass.

Sorry the never ending venting. I was already having a hard time dealing with my internal problems before all this shit. He is clearly the family favorite kid and it let me felt abandoned as a child by my mom, making this hitting extra hard. I fucking hate that I fell that i'm the only broken one, with only me having all the self-esteem issues and nice guy syndrome.