Hey guys I’m 24 years old.

Been a loser my whole life, never fucked/kissed/went on one pathetic date my whole life.

Found out about TRP recently, I read the sidebar including the recommended books, “Book of Pook” was the turning point for me.

I started working out, eating/sleeping right, reading, new haircut, new clothes, new job, new mindset...

Anyhow, looking better and feeling more confident, I applied what the sidebar has taught me and started going out with some girl.

Petite, beautiful, smart and a virgin... (she’s 22, not that unusual where I live)

We’ve been going out for a bit over a month. (5 dates, schedule is hectic rn)

We only kissed and I felt her up a bit, logistics were an issue but now I got a new apartment in the area. (Country is still old-fashioned - that’s how it goes around here, slow...)

Anyhow, problem is, ever since I started going out with her, I’m not as motivated/determined as I was before, I kinda know where it stems from but I’m not sure what to do, it’s a self destruction thing.

I don’t believe everything with her is working out so well, when I think back about kissing her and feeling her up, it feels like I’m disconnected from that person, the one that’s going out with her. Pretty much inferiority complex + self destruction - “Why tf is she going out with me?!”

I want to fuck her, I know I can but I’m fucking scared:

  1. I’m still overweight, not as I used to be, But I still look disgusting with a shirt off.

  2. I’ve got a small penis (4.5), sucks...

  3. I’ve got stretch marks from being almost obese in my past.

I want to fuck her, at the same time I’m scared of getting there and I’m fucking myself up, I don’t train as hard, I fuck up my diet, and my mindset is getting all twisted again.

Any suggestion?