This post is a follow up for my latest post in this subreddit. There you find basic info.

First of all, we indeed fucked. It was my first non-relationship sex and her second time ever. We are both 18 now.

This is how it went. She came over, we chatted for 20 minutes, immediately drank beer to get in the mood. After those 20 minutes of compulsory "how's life" and shit, we started watching the movie. The movie was kinda irrelevant, since we had a lot to talk about – I'm not that type to gossip, but since she literally had urge to talk shit about people, I went along and added my points.

(I need to mention that we know eachother for 5 years, but only as acquaintances. We started to chat month ago, therefore became closer friends.)

As adviced, I escalated little by little. She is really into talking about parties she visits, so I asked her about all the nasty shit they do --> first step in escalation. Then I grabbed her thigh (no resistance there).

Another half an hour of random chatting passed, and I felt like I am ready to take it to another level. Since we had 2 beers and cup of wine in ourselves, I had the balls to show her off my handcuff collection (she told me I have to show it to her). This is when we both knew what's up.

Now we're about an hour into the date. She knew I'm a decent 'fucker', although no the best kisser (she is the exact opposite), therefore I told her to "show me how you do it". From there we got into foreplay (tongue + fingerplay from my side and kissing all over the body [unfortunately I let my guard off and made hickeys on her neck]).

Another ~10 minutes passed and I reached out for condom. No LMR from her side. The problem came right here. I jacked of beforehand (~1.5 hours) since I know I don't usually have problem with second rounds. Little did I know that when I mix it with alcohol, I get 80% percent hard. We had sex for half an hour before I said "I think that's enough." Neither of us finished. I went soft, so I tried to finish her off with fingers --> not successful.

During the thing she said it hurts like 3 times. I always slowed for a short period and then tried to proceed based on reaction of her body and breath.

We both take shower and soon after she leaves with a hug. Before leaving we had this convo where she mentioned she's trying to process what has just happened. I openly said "neither of us thought it would end with the movie, did we?" on which she agreed with laughter.

Now I'm sitting here confused on how did I do. I fucked up with the hickeys and not getting 100% hard (I did not apologize though. I only said "I'm having less beer next time" to which she replied she's having more.)

How did I handle this date? I'm open to any kind of response. I also apologize for this being autistically written; I did my best as I'm frankly confused what the fuck has just happened.

I also want to add a question: how do I continue? I saw advices saying both that I should be the one texting her tommorow that I enjoyed it and that I should never be the one texting first. Again, huge confusion in my brain.

Thanks lads

Godspeed.

Edit: she reached out first with “I hope things won’t get wierd between us 😂❤️”. I replied with “I’m sure it won’t 😉”. At this moment, I’m sure we’re repeating this event if I play my cards the right way.