I am 22 years old virgin,havent kissed any girl and never been on a date.I havent even held woman hand.

Although we can assume that probbably thats because I am ugly or I couldnt possibly be at the position like this at that time,I think that there are several factors that made huge impact apart from that.

I spent my life as a nerd.That means that I have one to two friends,often no firends,rarely or never hanging out,spending most of my life inside my room.I dont know why did it happen,its mixture of several circumstances,I am naturally a little bit introverted in sense that I rarely feel the need of befriending other people and being social.I get lost in reading books,science and surfing web.I was always too abitious,wanted to be better than other people,having better carrier,academics money,and I looked as hanggig out as a waste of time. As a result I sacraficed my social and probbably love life.

It was always something I was putting aside,not invasting effort into that and I focused on studying.

Another thing going against me is that I spent majority of my life fat 40+ pounds overweight.

I lost a lot of weight and am looking decent,I am still losing and have a plan to add a lot of muscles.

And last thing is that I never asked any girl out,although I feel like every girl on this world will reject me.

I have never expirienced girl having a crush on me,asking me out and so on.Although I havent met much girls.

Btw,Tinder killed my last piece of confidence,I was normal looking there and I only have 8 matches this month which dont answer or are rude and abnoxious.

I want to sleep with a lot of women,I want to change,I cant live with myself anymore,but still I am afraid of possible truth that maybe I am way uglier than I think.