I've always been smart and very observant. Now, with TRP, I'm a radar for social stuff and power dynamics.

The problem is, this kind of "obsession" is making myself miserable. I notice how stuff go and I act in order to make them go my way. A few examples:

1) I live my life on my own terms until I see someone starts messing with my reputation behind my back. I can choose to let it go, instead I make sure to mess with the guy's reputation until he looks like a dick.

2) I push my career forward relentlessly until the moment I see my coworkers start distancing themselves, especially on social stuff. At that point, I slow down and make sure I have a social place in the group and try to manipulate them to make it look like I care.

3) I stop bothering trying to appease women and do my stuff until I notice I have to intervene so they would not spread rumors about me and/or hurt my reputation and/or influence other potential interests of mine.

4) With guys, keep it cool until I see the group starts following guy A or guy B too much and then I make sure to mess with him so that they don't become the "de facto" leader.

I find myself doing all this shit when I notice I'm losing power or potential "sex" or whatever. Not caring about this has led me, in the past, to me mocked and be made the clown. Now, however, I'm exhausted by living like this...

What can I do to "stabilize" myself? Is it always like this, if you want to have "some power" in social stuff?