Hey guys I just have a situation I wanted to run by you all.

I meet this hb 8 at a bar on Friday, and I approach. After hitting it off, we start dancing but her orbiter brother types are around. She says she "hopes they don't intimidate me" and they don't. I hold frame and am friendly to them. However, everytime they come around, her dancing gets way less dirty because she doesn't wanna be judged. So eventually I suggest a setting change and we go get her coat, but she's hungry and so am I. We grab cheap pizza and her other orbiter confronts me but I handle him with class. She laughs and apologizes for him, and then her and I walk to her apartment after she throws up some slight resistance/shit tests, I just play it off as though I'm just walking her back.

After getting to her apartment, I realize I left my condom in the car and my friends were still by the bar. It was 2:30 am at this point. She grabs me water, runs to the bathroom, sits on my lap afterwards and we start kissing. Eventually I pick her up and move to the couch, and she slings out a comment about how hot that was and how I'm strong and blah blah. Eventually I tell her I don't have a condom and so things wane a bit. My friends call me looking for a ride, and as soon as my attention shifts away from her, she starts taking her leggings off and is just in her thong and she starts kissing my neck and showering me with attention.

I pretty much just end up giving her an ass massage that night, and try to spank her awake(she became sleepy drunk) because I had to get my friends, and as I'm leaving she tries to tease me and get me to stay and abandon them. I obviously wouldn't do that, so I get her number and leave.

Skip to last night, I'm gaming her and eventually get her to meet up at the bar with me. I had just drove back to my home after finals which is an hour away from where I go to school at. Eventually she agrees but won't walk in the cold unless I have two shots waiting for her. I playfully fight with her on it but I end up caving and telling her "if you don't hurry your ass up, your shots will get warm". (Probably a beta move...)

Anyways she gets there and I'm confident af, and I feel like I smiled a bit too much. She shit tests me a couple times but I literally just agree and amplify it all and brush it off. She eventually says "I feel like nothing I say will ever insult you or get to you" and I say "you're probably right".(strong fucking frame) Eventually we start talking about how she was riding me the other night and blah blah, I tell her how it wasn't the right night that night to fuck, I had too much responsibility. She brings up how she only remembers parts of it or some shit, but by the time I left her apartment that night before, she was naked and wanting me like mad. I respond by saying "tonight is different, but we won't do anything unless we both want to" and I smirk.

Anyways, she ended up asking me about work, and my major and my internship and future job, and I stupidly disseminate this information, she offers to pay for her part of the meal and drinks but I stupidly pay the whole thing. I read a topic earlier about putting yourself into provider status and I realized I really fucked up here... I start talking about places to explore in our town and she's raring to go on a drive with me to see a place I mentioned. (I should've just said we should chill at her place... but noooo.)

I open the door for her to my car, and then I get in (being too damn gentlemanly) and eventually she asks me about my type of girl. I flip it and ask her what her type is, she describes me to a T. I end up telling her what my type is, and it just happens to be a thick white girl with a small waist and a fat ass. (Her. I should've lied). Eventually I bring up going back to her place after we've driven around and she says "so you're inviting yourself to my place?" And I said "you said this last time lol.. don't be presumptuous"

I eventually tell her idc what we do but there's things I prefer. I end up getting her back to her place at 2:30 am and she doesn't want to invite me in. I walk her to her door and make out with her and grab her, and then she smiles and just says "goodnight".

I've been laying in bed unable to sleep because I'm pissed at myself and I see everything I've done wrong now that I'm not in the situation.

My question is, do I still try to fuck and slightly alter my sexual frame to knock her off balance? Or do I soft next and just take the L, I've been thinking about smashing since the night I wasn't able to.

Edit: I'm low key in a fit of rage at myself for this.