Maybe I have aspergers, maybe I don't like people maybe something else but I think I really don't care about another person's opinions. Unless other person is someone very successful in some area. When I talk to people, I ask questions, make statements and remarks but deep down I really don't give a shit. I keep asking questions probably to make a connection, not because I'm interested in their answers. I just think of random stuff to ask. Then I get bored eventually and I can't help but to make it obvious that I don't care about them.

My problem might be that I can't fake. What I'm feeling inside can be clearly seen on the outside. My "vibe" is loud. This is a good thing in business or when flirting but it is bad generally because I don't care about people. I rather them not to exist this much lol.

How can I fake my "inner state" or whatever that is so I can appear authentic and consistent all around? I need people to like me because I want the advantages they provide for me. But I don't like the fact that I need them.

PS. I don't care about them for them but I care about what they think of me. I want their validation, acceptance. I want to see that I'm worth through them.