I'm 21 and I feel lost in life. Currently I am employed part time in an entry level IT helpdesk job which is not fulfilling but I stay there because of likeable coworkers, potential of moving up and because the manager is really supportive with letting me set my work schedule so I can both work and go to University for a Computer Science degree. I have no idea if that is what I want to do, my real dream would be to escape the 9-5.
-I hate working, don't know if a job exists that I would actually like. -I have no real close friends, many years ago I had a small close friend group and they were the only people I've ever enjoyed my time with but sadly I haven't been in contact for a long time and felt kind of abandoned by them as they got better friends. -I feel envy of others who hang out and have fun but everytime I've went out to a party or social event to meet new people I never enjoy it and I struggle to talk to new people. I feel insecure and quiet. -I spend all my free time on social media, working out, playing video games. If someone asks me what my weekend plans are I am ashamed to say the truth and can't give an answer. -I only enjoy being alone, but I also feel lonely at the same time I'm ashamed of my lifestyle. -I'm terrified of having no purpose and I feel like a complete loser at life -How do I find fulfilment in life?
