One of the tenant of the red pill that resonates with my life is the dark truth of a cold indifferent world. It's the deepest whole in my life and I've known good men that have fallen.

Statement: No One Really Cares.

This statement can be a good tool to combat social anxiety, the power in knowing that no one really cares and everything is going to be about the same tomorrow truely helps prevents a scared life. But this statement is a double edge dagger.

It says No One Really Cares, and No one really ever cared and no one will ever care. I know this sounds pessimistic or nihilistic but I believe that you can only appreciate the light after long dark night.

I'm just feeling really insignificant in my family. No one acknowledge my existence and I'm always initiating conversation with my family of 6. It's tiring and I'm constantly being nagged by my mom.

Context: I'm 22 and I'm building and camper van to move out in a couple months. I'm working full time. My dad's back in Africa and I hate talking to him cause its always small talk and he never tries to connect, it feels really weird like he's checking a box. I'm the oldest boy in a large female led home. I try my best not to engage in debates cause it's too stressfull. I'm just taking it day by day. And trying to ignore all the passive aggressive female bullshit. My mom obviously hates that I'm living in a van, and keeps trying to change my mind, I've told her this is my journey and my dream for the last 5years🤦🏾‍♂️. I'm just so mad at my dad cause he thru me to the wolves of Female Chaos and never gave me a space for just us to bond. I don't know how to overcome this frustration.