We were together for a longer time and faced with the normal adversity you get when trying to pickup women, I have stayed single since we broke up. Me feeling immensely lonely - I have two friends - I kept sending her messages, in a way pretending like nothing happened. But it is not about her. It is about anyone who cares about me. If I had friends, maybe another girlfriend, I would have long forgotten about her, maybe written a postcard once every 5 years. But as that didn't happen, I hang onto her. And she let's me feel that. Every part of her is treating me like a toddler who needs a mommy. She tries to minimize contact and is condescending. What is it that I really need right now and in the future?
