I'm just way too horny....it's literally like this parasite scratching away at the back of my head screaming to be fed. And it keeps distracting me from stuff and making me want to message women and try to get laid constantly and the only way to get rid of it is to jack off. And I have been jacking off twice a day everyday for like the better part of a decade (I'm 22). And that precious small window after jacking off is the only time I feel like I have full access to my rational mind and can operate at full capacity....and before I know it the urges return.
It's fucking pathetic and I want to stop it. I suppose it's two main things -- one is that it's because I'm young and two is that I'm a virgin so I guess I still have this dream vision of sex in my head and about how good it must be. I can't do anything about the first one and I don't know if I want to do anything about the second either....it's too hard to get casual sex especially in my country and who wants to risk it anyway with the false accusations and shit....so what the hell do I do?
