That sleepover at friends in high schools, relationships etc. I had nothing. I listen to people telling me that they had gone on vacations with friends and stayed up all night and watched movies etc but I don't have those experiences. I don't have friends and at 24 it's pretty hard to get friends who I can truly connect with. There are some people from my past who always pull me down somehow when I meet them. I met one such clown the other day after 2 years and boy he made me feel so bad about myself that I drank after 2 months of no alcohol. The other cousin I know encourages me to drink when he knows I have problems with it
I am professionally not too successful too. What I have realised that in college the people I had with me were my drinking buddies. They stopped replying to me as soon as we left college. I don't think they were friends and were there till the time I was paying for alcohol.
Lastly I don't enjoy shit. My biggest problem with myself and I know it is retarded is that I have not scored a woman in the country I had lived in for 5 years. So obsessed am I with this fact that I have just developed a huge fetish for the women from this country and some strange obsessions. I just keep asking people how many girls from the mentioned country they have been with.
Also, the ugliest of guys keep claiming that they are swimming in pussy and people on reddit that I talk to claim that they have tried a lot of kinky stuff etc. I have occupied my time with this as it gives me pleasure but it's very painful.
