Everyone from my uni is doing much better than me. I am into weird stuff sexually, I haven't had sex without paying in 4 years, I pay money to girls to talk to me, I am suicidal. I want someone to guide me and lead the way. I want someone to help me live my life. I have a weird cuck fetish which no psychologist has been able to solve. I pay italian girls to tell me about their sex with black and Arab guys. This is almost the only thing that I think about unfortunately. This thought has ruined my life for 2 years. What do I do?
