I constantly daydream about a life in the countryside, near a lake where I can just do whatever I want. Hobby farming, motorcycles, fishing. I like to talk about it with my mom who always try to stop me because "it would be social suicide", which is somewhat true. It would be about an hour away from friends and parents. She often asks: "what girl are you going to find out there?" to make me think about it.

I don't know what to do with my life right now. It just feels like I work and struggle to survive and everything is about fighting for women to settle down with. Settle down in a situation and environment I don't even like.