Even when I am away from porn I just get turned on by the mere sight of women. I have no passion, no friends. My family is really conservative. I come home from work and pay girls for sex stories on kik. In addition to this I have severe anxiety. I can't talk to people and probably have a low iq too. I just want some help in life and no psychologist can understand me. I have been to many but I don't blame them. I have weird fantasies about sex that psychologists can't comprehend. I want to feel loved and I hate myself. I tried the gym etc but haven't been able to continue formore than 5 days. I have no hope. I am contemplating ending it and swallowing the black pill as people' have asked me to. Everyone calls me dumb, ugly, idiotic on online forums
