This is something that I've been avoiding confronting for a long time. After going through the anger phase of TRP a few years ago, gaming my way into the pants and hearts of plenty of normal girls and a few crazies, I've lost the fulfillment that I used to gain out of these women.

For whatever reason, I was fucking them to prove to myself that I could, and to prove that TRP was right and that AWALT etc. Recently I've been seeing a woman 3+ SMV points above where I would place myself. I haven't been outwardly placing her on a pedestal , nor have I been projecting whatever insecurity I have on her. It's going "well" as far as relationships might go according to normies.

What haunts me is the reality of the concept that is AWALT - All Women Are Like That. My expectations have never been lower when it comes to how women react to RP truths: A&A, Push/Pull, self-mastery etc. But when I found a woman who seemed to refute or at least deflect most elements of what TRP has to say about women, (Outwardly interested in monogamy, conservative upbringing, a so-called good girl unicorn type), and every TRP principle worked on her and every trick in the book was applicable, I started feeling fucking horrible all the time.

How women truly are depresses me. The realization that my BP programming (I would find a good woman some day who would love me for me) was completely wrong is killing me inside.

tl;dr: I'm physically in good shape, my diet and nutrition are on point, I'm successful in my academics and in my work ventures outside of school, but AWALT is making me want to die. My imperative to find a woman with whom I should raise children is based on a false premise. All I want to do from here on out is drink until I die. What can I do, askTRP? Just stare the beast down and hope I don't blink?