Wouldn't call her an ex, more of a hookup that lasted about two months. She broke up with me four weeks ago and calls me relatively recently, after getting a depo shot after we had broken up, they tested her and she was negative for pregnancy. She calls me about four days later crying saying she took an at home pregnancy test and that she is pregnant wanting me to be supportive. I'm supposedly the only dude she's been with.... I've since moved on with my life, and since she was a hookup, I had been dating a woman I'm really into while seeing her (she didn't know details but knew I was seeing others).

I can't help but feel overwhelming hate for this woman, I havent seen an ultrasound yet, but I don't know how, if she has this kid, I'm ever going to feel anything but hate for it, I want nothing to do with either of them. Of course she went back and forth on the abortion idea...with me telling her how much I disagree with her decision to bring it into the world, but has decided to keep it because....emotions. I'm really, really angry with her, to the point I don't want to even see her..and she has the nerve to ask me to be supportive to boot FOH. I'll support a miscarriage or abortion that's it. Is it normal to feel this way? Here come the deadbeat dad police I'm sure. But if I'm always resentful of this woman, how could I ever be a good father? I don't view children as a blessing or any of the isms people throw around, they are a burden and if not with the right woman (aka this predicament) an anchor. I'm going with her to the six week ultrasound and she thinks me hearing a heartbeat will soften me, but I feel like it will only make me more angry.