He needs our support

I lost my virginity when I was fifteen/sixteen years old (at the moment I’m 20M), it was at my friend’s sixteenth house party and her mother was there. The crowd I was friends with at the time were the types to smoke all sorts of things (I’ve never seen the appeal but we’ve been friends for years) and at the time they’d hotboxed the bathrooms so god knows what was in all our lungs at the time. I was on the sofa drinking as I didn’t feel right, didn’t know if it was because I was still new to drinking or what but then my friend’s mum sat next to me upset. We started talking, I was just trying to help. Next thing I know she’s grabbed me by the wrist and lead me upstairs, I didn’t know what was happening, I was really out of it. She pushed me on the bed, closed the door and I reckon you can guess what happened next...

I kept it quite for months until my friends got it out of me, and for awhile I didn’t think it was a big deal. Hell I didn’t really know what rape was. And I certainly didn’t think that a guy could be on the receiving end. (I guess it was how I was raised?)

It didn’t hit me until a few years later (ago) what had really happened to me. Hell I still don’t have the confidence to say with 100% certainty that that’s what it was.

Was I raped? Can I say that? Either way it’s too late to take it to court now, and everyone will still joke about it and mostly I don’t mind. But deep down, I lost my first time. I can never, ever, get that back.

P.s: I don’t know why but I’m expecting a lot of negative responses. If that does happen, I’ll just take this down and we can all act like this never happened.