Why would I keep going if the chance is so high that I get falsely accused?

I’ve had hookups with girls and guys before, but they all ended on bad terms. They could all still be mad. They were all about a year ago but still

I’ve seen the percentages. And some of them seemed extremely high, and since I’ve had a good amount of one night stands from my past, they might still hate me and want revenge on me.

So I’m asking why stay alive? Wouldn’t it be better if I went out a martyr. Wouldn’t that send a message? Besides, I’m paranoid with fear anyways. Social isolation has only made my problems worse. I can’t ignore my problems anymore. I just want the pain to end. Then I won’t fear a false accusation anymore. I think that’s the only way for me to ever be happy again.