My mother beaten me when I was a child until I could stand up for myself. She most of the time was awful mother. I don't love her anymore, even after many times when I did my best to forgive her, she done or say something bad to me again and I just couldn't forgive her anymore, so I lost all my love to her.

I'm living away from my parents now in another country, but I came back home to visit my father and her. One day my father was away from home. I had an argument with my mother because she's making a slum out of home, I have no words to describe how messy our home was. I was trying to clean up the mess every day and she was doing things like just throwing rubbish to the sink even though bin is less than a meter away from the sink. She was showing zero respect to the work I've done trying to keep everything tight and clean. I would just clean up the apartment and she would make a slum out of it in a day. One day I was really pissed off of her behavior, so we had an argument. I told her that she's lazy and etc. She tried to hit me in the face, I blocked her punch. She got really angry and she ran to the kitchen, grabbed a knife and assaulted me with it (it was not the first time when she assaulted me or other family member with a weapon). Finally I got an opportunity to grab a knife from her hand, threw the knife away and held her on the floor telling to calm down. A minute later she said that she's calm, I let her go and she ran out from the apartment. I locked the door in case she gonna try to do something stupid and told her that I'm gonna let her in when she's back to normal state. Then she called cops and she lied them that I beat her. They put handcuffs on my wrists, I was humiliated in front of neighbors. They didn't even ask a single question or listened to things I'm saying. I wasn't aggressive or anything like that, I tried to ask questions but they completely ignored me. They put me in jail where I was threatened like not a human. I understand that there's people in jail who had committed crimes, maybe some of them didn't, but the staff of jail shouldn't treat anyone this way.

So only the next day I had a chance to tell my version of what happened and finally I wasn't ignored. I provided a lot of proof of what kind of person my mother is and after a few days the case was against her. Even after I spent a night in jail for a false claim of domestic violence, police just told her to cancel her claims because there was tons of proof that she assaults people almost on daily basis, and she didn't even have to take a responsibility for her false claims which is unbelievable. She lied to our neighbors and other people who knows our family, she lied that I "beat her" and etc. After some time I checked her phone and found text messages (that she wrote to people I don't know) that I "beat her". This was other the top.

I couldn't do anything, but after spending a night in jail I experienced what is like to be threatened like a criminal and I was very sorry for the people who are locked there. For me it looked like jail guards and staff is programmed to make the people who are behind the bars even worse criminals by treating them this way. Even though I'm not a criminal, but being threatened like one made me angry on society. I even had bad thoughts about causing pain to others and etc which was really weird. Now I could understand people who becomes monsters, it might be because how society threatens them before and after they becomes bad people. This way of treating incarcerated people is harmful to society.