I exercise everyday and have a lot of friends but I don't have any self confidence or motivation. I focus on small things in life example if someone doesn't accept my friend request or one of my friends say something rude, I waste my whole two days thinking about that. I am fairly successful with women but when they sleep with me and treat it as a one time thing, I become really really sad and emotionally invested and feel depressed and waste a day brooding on that.

My brain is a total fuckimg mess. I just keep obsessing that my friends will leave me and read into their messages and ask for explanations and when they don't respond, I read into the situation and feel sad and useless throughout the day.

I am a really emotional person and have been diagnosed with depression and OCD. I am on Prozac and also hypertension drugs. Alcohol is the only thing that keeps me happy and I love meeting new people when I'm drunk. Every person I meet thinks I am really intellectual and in one single night I approach about 10-15 people and love having conversations with them. But when they don't respond the next day I become sad and feel like drinking again or harming myself. I have no interests and have been a top student in high school but have terrible uni grades at one of the best unis in econ in the world