So back in November I dumped my gf of 2 years. The relationship was fine, but in the end I didn't like myself so I kinda projected that onto her. I figured that the new improved me could do much better and everything would be great.

I've lost 30 pounds, gained financial stability and slowly building up my physique and overall improving myself as a human being. I also miss the shit out of my ex. Don't know what you got until it's gone.

Her Pros: She was nice, wasn't nagging, rarely shit tested me, always down for sex, one of the most incredible asses I've seen on a white girl, smart, kinky(ish), appreciated me, doted on me on occasion, low n-count (I was her first and only as far as I know), a cheap date.

Her cons: Dead alcoholic father when she was young, mother/brother hated me, the worst kind of feminist for friends, unable to handle criticism without breaking down crying, shitty fashion sense, small breasts, barely ever used makeup (only did so when putting on an outfit just for sex like french maid/school girl), lived a hour away, too self-conscious about sex stuff so I always did all the work in bed (except for blowjobs)

I've dabbled with tinder since we split, my first few months being single were great. I was averaging out a new girl every 10 days. After a bit though I just lost all interest in dealing with these tinder whores. I mean, getting coked out and fucking until 5 am is fun sometimes, but I can only keep up that lifestyle for so long. I don't know if I'm just lonely, and looking but with rose tinted glasses, or maybe I just tossed away a perfectly fine girl just because I was feeling stupid and shallow because I missed big tits.

I'm not really expecting an answer here, but every time I get drunk the last few weeks I've come pretty damn close to texting her and I just need to talk about this to someone for a bit. For refrence, i'm 27 and she's 22...23 maybe now.