FSW this is what Feminists actually want; to condition women to feel fear, uncertainty, and doubt concerning everything men do, and of course keep the "Patriarchy" alive and well.

I've been reading and seeing more and more about internalized misogyny and the male gaze and the beauty myth etc. and obviously it made me think a lot and question how I see the world around me and most importantly about how I see myself (as it should). However, this has lead to somewhat of an identity crisis for me as I'm questioning everything. How do you guys deal with that stuff? I just feel like I don't know if I really like the stuff I like or if I was just taught that. For example, putting on make-up when I go out feels empowering to me, but does it just feel like that because I'm catering more to the male gaze? Dressing revealingly feels like I'm sexually liberated and confidant about my body to me, but am I just trying to emulate the images of strong and confidant women in the media who are highly sexualized and objectified by the camera? I also notice that I kind of unconsciously and sometimes consciously seek male attention and validation and that I love feeling attractive and all that probably because of that. And this goes on and on and on. How do I figure who I am outside of that and what I really like because I like it?

(I hope I expressed myself clearly and that this is understandable, English is not my native language)