TLDR my current girlfriend was the “unicorn” or third wheel to two threesome couples (MFF) and its causing me to have disgust reaction/retroactive jealousy/be Beta etc etc.

Me (27) recently met a girl (26) after going through a rough 2 year period of involuntary celibacy. My sexual loser time came mostly from working long hours night shift law enforcement, but also because I'm very socially lazy and don’t give myself enough opportunity to meet women. I will state that I’ve always had difficulty in getting the kind of sexual and relationship experiences I think should have been “normal” for me in my teens and early 20’s, but red pill really helped me understand why I was frustrated with it and what was my fault for not getting what I thought should be normal.

Anyways, via work new girl comes into my life, and we hit it off and I ask her out. To give some perspective it took me about a month of socializing with her in various ways before I finally asked. She accepts and we go out. I apply lots of red pill principles and talk like I’m a sexual libertine so I can see if she’ll admit to how slutty she is. I got her to admit to being in a threesome (MFF) but don’t get anything else beyond that. She asks me how many partners I’ve had, and amazingly I didn’t lie like I would have in my blue pill days and told her 15. I cutely ask that since she asked me I need to know hers, and she gave the answer of 10. (I of course then guessed around 30 N count). We had sex on the first date which honestly doesn’t bother me too much even when screening for LTR.

Well, I think my long term loneliness kicked in and I’m not sure if I’m being taken over by male thirst or scarcity mentality but anyways, I’m starting to fall kind of hard for her.

So my problem is that I’ve lost my frame and my jealousy over her past has come through, which is something I was particularly looking to hide from her. However, what surprised me is is that its not her past one night stands and exes that angers my retroactive jealousy, but the threesomes.

I learned (from her) that she was the third wheel with a female roommate and her boyfriend on a few occasions (not sure what a few means, didn’t dig any deeper). She also stated she was the third wheel for a married couple who thought a threesome would help bring sexuality back to their marriage.

For some reason, this really made my beta jealousy come out, and I couldn’t hide it from her. I didn’t call her out on it, but I think she picked up the disgusted look in my face at some point and I probably initiated her anti slut defense.

Its the thing that makes me want to lash out and be angry at her and call her a slut. Classic beta anger behavior. I keep imaging her as this disposable sex toy for the couple, keep imagining the couple talking about needing to find the “crazy, loose slut” who’d be willing to be a worthless throwaway sex toy for them and then deciding to ask my now girlfriend. I told her I was simply jealous that I’ve never been in a threesome and she has, but that’s not the root of the problem. If I had a threesome it wouldn’t stop me from thinking of her as the “unicorn.”

Red pill has allowed me to understand why women give into one night stands. Why women didn’t give me attention when I was quiet and not outgoing and didn’t pursue them etc etc. I just can’t understand why any women would want to be the “unicorn” for the other couple, and since I can’t understand it I think she’s abnormal, damaged, and not good enough for me. She told me she’s not Bi, and I don’t really understand it from the perspective of just wanting sex.

I don’t want to dump her right now, because I like the sex and I really need the experience. Again, I’m a guy that was ready to take the girl off the pedestal, assumed she had a lurid sexual past unless proven otherwise, and was generally AWALT. This threesome thing was a curve ball and didn’t see it coming and affecting me like this.

Thanks for your input if you have any.