I am a 34M, I met my ex wife when I got out of the army and moved back home, I was married in the army at 19, while I was in Afghanistan I found out she was cheating and during our custody/divorce I found out my then 3yr old son wasn't biologically mine. Flash forward to coming home after being divorced for over 2 years, losing a child I raised for several years I felt like I was missing a piece. I search for the exact opposite of what I normally went for and I found my last wife, I was 24 at the time and she was 30, I really rushed things we were engaged after year and half, married after 2yrs and my son came around year 3, then it all started to fall a part, I was working not stop to try and keep up with the life style she wanted, again I got out of the army at 23 so I was behind the curve had some in between jobs at 25 I found a career but she was 32 in her job for 10+ years as were all her friends so I was constantly trying to keep up, give her all she wanted killing myself. The more we raised our son together the more I realized how different we were then covid hit I was an essential worker who was working around the clock and when I wasn't working I was watching my son while she worked. I wanted it to work so at every turn I tried to do the best I could, being the genius I was I thought maybe baby number 2 would fix it, plus there was alot of pressure from her friends group saying we needed to have a second sooner than later. I had my beautiful daughter next and that pregnancy was a spiral, she became even more of a distance different person who just expected a pay check, to be some cookie cutter guy that I wasn't, we weren't intimate for the whole pregnancy and one time after. I had some underlying issues of my own, I had some military related mental health issues I ignored for about 10 yrs and I had a wandering eye in the late stages of the marriage when booze was involved. All things considered I got so unhappy and my mental health was falling a part, I was working like 90hrs plus a week sleeping barely so I eventually said enough is enough and separated. One of the hardest decisions I ever had to make and I didn't make it light hearted, I sat on my sons bed and cried like a baby before I left. I went to the VA started treatment and the longer I was away from her the better I felt and got, was like some huge relief of my chest after so long. We had many sit down talks I tried to explain my mental health stuff and my reasoning while pleading to stay in my kids life as much as possible and I would pay whatever it took. After getting to see my kids off and on trying to work through things about 3 months in I was served with divorce papers and my ex went for full custody. That was 3 years ago, it took 2 years to get a separation agreement and custody agreement, we are still fighting because I am trying to get more custody of my kids, I have 50/50 on paper but I get them tue after work until thu before school and every other weekend Friday after work to Sunday at 5p. I am trying to get week to week to make it easier on my kids and scheduling wise as I live 30 minutes away. After I split from her I began a relationship quite quickly with a woman I had known for years but only as a friend due to the fact I was married and she was in a long term relationship. We would go out with mutual friends and always hit it off. So when I left we kind of naturally gravitated to each other. Due to this my ex tries to tell everyone we had an affair, she has smeared me in court, tried to use my mental health and military service to keep my kids from me. My kids are the greatest thing in my life, aside from the woman I am with now, I have done earthing for 3 years to devote being the best father I can be through all this, I've changed jobs to be more avaliable, bought a beautiful home to raise them in, taken them on trips, vacations, you name it trying to raise them the best I can to be good people. I admit I was not the best husband or man, but I have worked very hard to make up for who I was and spend everyday trying to be better for them. Currently thier mom is trying to petition the court to move 1.5hrs away to which I am fighting, she also took a video of my almost 6yr old son saying her overheard my and my current as of almost 3 years woman saying we wanted to poison her which is a lie, he just knows he can grt a rise out of her and likes to tell stories, 8 months ago my ex texted me saying congrats on my woman being pregnant since my son told her, which wasn't true either. We had a kindergarten event today for my son, my ex wife went after my current in front of a crowd of parents saying she is the reason we split and we had an affair. Oh did I mention my ex is engaged to a new man but continues to try to muddy up my life. Yeah I'm sure I missed some details somewhere but man am I tired.