I was, like so many, a lonely nerd. I wasn't a macho alpha male and I despised those kinds of guys. I wanted true and profound love that would last a lifetime, with the girl of my dreams to protect and care for me and guide me...and get rough with me/dominate me physically & sexually. I couldn't find that, for years, I became bitter, and I gave up. I started getting into redpill. It made me into everything I hated and never wanted to be. It made me hate who I was more than I ever did. This is not an accident. It's set up to manufacture one kind of man and one alone: The prototypical high school jock and college frat boy. All the guys who used to call me names and treat me like useless scum...they were trying to turn me into one of them as a solution to my loneliness. I know this is cliche but that's how it was for me for all my life, getting picked on by their type. The first thing they tell you is a view of the world in which all men are naturally masculine and all women naturally feminine, with anomalies existing only as delusions or products of cultural sickness. These macho men want girly girls and feminine girls want masculine men. Men have to be dominant and women have to be submissive. They say this is the root cause of men's inceldom, not being masculine and dominant enough. But...I'm none of those things and I didn't want a submissive feminine girl anyway. "Tough shit, accept that you'll die alone and no woman will want you unless she's ugly and sexless," was the general response. Be us or be a worthless nothing. Feminine men are degenerate garbage in their eyes, and masculine women who might love them are unicorns. Their word. Unicorns. There is no advice offered on how She and I could find each other. Plenty of insults and disrespect, no advice that isn't laden with disgust. The next thing they sell: Weight lifting. Getting buff and having big muscles. They say it will improve confidence. I hated the way I looked, the way I felt when I started lifting. It wasn't me. All my slim lines, soft places and long thin skinnyfat ectomorph shapes were gone, replaced by a blockish slab of cosmetic beef and sweat. My face looked terrible. My whole body looked terrible. I was tired and numb from working out. It began to feel almost intellectually insulting to be spending all that time grunting and sweating at a gym for the sake of an appearance I didn't want to have. That was when I woke up, gave the finger to redpill and made my own pill to take. It wasn't worth being a self-hating stranger in my own body. And guess what? I have a wife now. She's everything I dreamed of, and everything the redpillers can't stand...she's not a feminist and she's not ugly or fat either. Never once has she remotely considered cheating on me. It doesn't stop there. I wish it did. She & I have some "problems" if you will, with certain idiots in meatspace who more or less say the same things you'll find on redpill. We travel across the country, and it can happen almost anywhere that some asshole or another shouts things or throws objects or tries to get in between us flirtatiously, or generally acts rude. I swear they're getting bolder every year. It's not isolated to angry yet harmless frustrated men on the internet. It's everywhere, men, women, white, black, rich, poor. It's not dating advice. It's an assimilation or eradication scheme.