Beginning of the year I was speaking to a guy I really fancied, he was amazing and we hooked up. He’s definitely a high value man from physique, to character and mentality. However I let my fears and doubts get in the way which lead to a messy ending where he blocked me everywhere. So months later I drop him a message to apologise because I had said some very entitled and hurtful things and that was that. Soon enough he became cold and distant which was no surprise 2 months later, out of nowhere he reached out asking about my projects that i’d shared with him, asking about every detail etc.. then he pulled away again. I get it I shouldn’t chase; but if he has all types of women after him and good friends and family around him.. why bother my peace? I understand you’re “just busy,” but why choose when you want to come and go? then when I make contact it’s a completely different story? Is it a control thing?

I really don’t understand, if you’re not interested then stand by that. I’m not desperate for him and not seeking a relationship yet, but I was open to a genuine friendship because we’re so alike.

Anywho, I’ve deleted his contact and I’m not on social media so its all good.