I know toxic af huh!!

Anyways let me try to make this as cute and short as possible.

I've been with a great guy for 2 years now he's very supportive, provides for me and my daughter (who isn't his child), respectful, and honest. When it comes to a dream guy he is literally the prototype.. The only problem is I never been physically attracted to him. But I stayed in the relationship because with time I did grow to love him and he treats me right and takes care of me.

Lets fast forward I recently came in contact again with a fuck boy that I used to mess with maybe 3 years ago.. Yes 3 years ago its true that they always come fucking back. And I begin the insecure dumb ass that I am gave him another try even though I am in a great relationship. I decided to lessen the feeling of guilt and I told my man that I wanted to take a break from the relationship to work on myself. I've been very bored with our routine and this fuckboy is literally my type physically. Lets me honest I just wanted to fuck him again.. I decided to tell him that if we are going to try again that things have to be different last time things didn't end well due to him playing mad games with me. He agreed and said he has a lot more time now and things will be different.

Surprise! this fucker was still the same little asshole!! always busy.. taking forever to text back not putting in an effort. We went on 3 dates that all ended up in his house and we had sex twice. I got all wrapped up and involved and started to chase him. I since then started to withdraw from him and tried to repair my relationship.

But I cant seem to get over him.. I feel like we are going through a break up even though we were never a confirmed couple. I have a great fucking man at home and I am constantly thinking about this fuck boy. I cant even have sex with my own man because I am so confused and caught up thinking about what my fuck boy is doing out there.. I am now so caught up in this situation that I can barely function.

Any advice will help..