So I've been a member of this subreddit for a while now, and i like the idea of it. The idea of self-improvement is something that has been on my mind for a while now and I'm working towards my goal. I'm also don't have the slightest idea about formatting on Reddit (for now), so I'm sorry if this text looks like shit, since I'm not typing this on my computer.

So my story is a funny one. It started in April, last year. I got a job at this fancy bar in downtown as a waiter. Now the town i live in is small when compared to other European cities. Since our climate is beautiful, especially during summer days, downtown is full of hot women. Imagine me, 20 year old dude, working for myself, drinking and having fun all night, every night. I met a couple of girls that i just fucked, nothing new about that.

Now i have to say that, this was a very fucked up period in my life. I had to quit my college, and had to work to support myself and my mother, who survived a serious injury to the spine, and hence could not work. So, a couple of months later, i met this girl who was a regular customer in my bar, and lived nearby. This girl (who was 17 btw) was dating a brother of my colleague, who was in a jail for beating some guy up. Long story short, when he got out, she caught him fucking his ex gf, and broke up with him, met me, we startet flirting and eventually, we hooked up. Couple of weeks later a came to her place, and we fucked a couple of times. I'm not gonna lie, i fucking fell in love with this girl like a moron. Eventually i saw her making out with her ex (the one that she caught cheating) a couple meters away from the place i worked at.

Fast forward a couple of weeks, i met this girl my friends hanged out with, and about 15 days later we hooked up. Again, long story short, she fell in love with me and shit, it was very nice in the beginning. Since she was a virgin (and i never dated virgins) i figured i would take thing slow and not "force" her to sleep with me. We fooled around naked and shit, but i never wanted to make a first move. This shit lasted for 6-7 months and i took her to every fucking restoraunt in the city, bought her gifts made sure she was happy and shit, i had no idea how to treat a virgin. As time went i started to see that her behavior towards me changed. She would no longer be happy as she was in the beginning, she would nag often, go out with her friends almost every night.

Something in me snapped. I broke up with her, and found out that she doesn't have any feeling towards me. After about a month i saw her with another guy, posting images on instagram and facebook. Then i found TRP. TRP led me to find MGTOW.

Now, when all this shit happened, and i got my head together, i reminded memories that i had from working in a bussy bar downtown. I saw how guys payed for all the drinks girls had, how pathethic they all were for pussy. I couldn't understand how the fuck i haven't learned from their mistakes.

It's that shit called "love". When i saw some posts here, and read that women don't love like men do, it all made sense. So i got uo from my ass, and started lifting weights, started reading, meditating, playing guitar. And the more i read about TRP and MGTOW, I find that i don't really want a relationship. I just want to do my stuff and be happy.

Now if you managed to get to the end of this post, my question is this : Will i be able to have a normal relationship again? I don't give a fuck about women anymore, and I'm not interested in relationships, i dont want to walk on eggshells for a wet hole. I saw the truth and I can't unsee it anymore. To be honest I'm kinda afraid that i will nevee be able to attach to anyone anymore.