I’ve fallen quite far but thankfully saves enough and did enough to keep my prospects alive so I don’t have to start all over. I’ve been consumed by getting revenge, misanthropy, and rage.

My plan for getting better is letting go of it. We will never get the revenge, let alone the justice we deserve. Sure, women being single and miserable as they age will be some schadenfreude but it’s hardly worth living for. Just change my mind to me center and accept how everything is and how people are. There’s still good in people and it’s readily apparent if you look for it. I’m going to get into a monogamous relationship and know it’s short lived and she’ll cheat, expect marriage, or whatever eventually but I can still have fun and enjoy steady pussy all while keeping my eyes open to pussyhop when the chance is right and splurging in side shit If available.

Eventually I’ll make good money or have enough to attract women easily or just get escorts. Really wish I could have a band of mgtow brothers I could at least be totally myself around, but maybe that’ll come with time.

Sucks knowing you’ll have no one to love you eventually and I’ll probably kill myself at that point. Might as well enjoy the road to that point and stop taking everything so seriously.