After much thought, there's no way I can survive going down the "normal path."

I've lost multiple jobs because I would have mental breakdowns, leading to my current unemployed status.

I've tried online dating, but couldn't get the hang of it and hate how it feels, so I'd rather grow accustom to being alone. Plus the fucking messages and trying to be "smooth" over text. It's just not my thing.

On the occasions where I'd tell friends and family plans to improve myself, I'd receive little to no encouragement, so I've had enough. I'm done trying to please others, and I want out. Now. If I don't get out, I'll most certainly just wind up doing something I hate and having a miserable life.

There seems to be validity to the whole "misery loves company" saying. No one wants to see you succeed, they'd all rather you get in line and live as shitty of a life as they do. Well, they can go fuck themselves. I'm out, and I have no intention of trying to play their petty little games ever again.

I guess, really, all I need is a plan that's sustainable in the long-term. I've opted out of dating, have no intention of marrying or even having a sex life, so I have a lot of time. I just need to figure out a way to apply it without flaw.

At this point, I just don't fucking care. I want enough to live, that's it. Food, water, and shelter. The rest I don't give a rat's ass about.