Forgive this meandering post but I want to share something. Yesterday I was clearing the contents of the spare room and found some old photos from 30 years ago in a desk drawer. In the photos were pictures of this beautiful woman I'd then fallen madly in love with. It never amounted to much in the end and she lives the other side of the world to me and I was just there on holiday visiting family.

Pausing to wallow in nostalgia, I sifted through the photos of her and of me some three decades ago. Looking at the photos she was undoubtedly very beautiful, as attractive women who have just turned 20 can only be (I was a couple of years older than her).

I would have torn up my plane ticket and stayed there to be with her. But looking back now after 30 years of experience and some MGTOW perspective I realise, she was just another THOT.

She already had a boyfriend who was out of town for a few weeks. When she arbitrarily decided she was bored with me she ghosted me, avoiding contact with me. Out of the blue randomly saying harsh things to me. Starting arguments over nothing. Looking back, it's obvious, I clearly meant nothing to her at all. Classic AWALT behaviour.

Hindsight is a wonderful thing and I wish I'd known back then what I know now. To have a chance to replay my life from my mid-teens knowing what I know now, would be wonderful.

Apologies for this damp squib of a post but no one else except those on this sub-reddit would understand.

TL;DR Just realised a woman I idolised 30 years ago was just another THOT - AWALT with very few exceptions.