I hate women, each and every one is a radical feminist/gold-digging whore/evil being. Nah not really, while I believe that AWALT, I know this hate in my heart is neither good for me, nor is it an accurate depiction of women. Don't get me wrong, when I say AWALT I mean all that shit about cock carousel, manipulations, shit tests, etc, I guess I just can't write it down. I'm so upset, so angry. All I ever wanted was to get married and have children. There is so much beauty when you're looking from the outside, but every day I realize just how much of a torment it is. I am scared to advance in public administration, the field is ruled by women and though it may be silly, I fear discrimination. I just want to die. All this is so damn much on my shoulders. Life is cancer. It's just not worth it anymore. I don't even know what I want; to wait for a good woman while I see each and every girl gets her brains fucked out by chad, or take every opportunity I get and become a chad myself. I just can't do it. I can't be a man whore no matter how hard I try. My scruples and religious upbringing won't let me. I can't go monk mode either, I can't bear to think of it. I can't just marry and hope for the best either, I know too much. I just want to fucking die.