The cuck part of me wants to go and message the two women that I was dating this year and tell them sorry for everything and that I hope they have a great new year, etc. But the MGTOW part of me just says no.

Not in the sense that they owe me an apology, but that I've always done this. I've always been a cuck and made myself so vulnerable to women. Apologizing to the first one when she said, "I'm just too busy right now but we can still be friends because I like talking to you (like your attention)", would just be stupid and pitiful. I want to rant to her now that I'm MGTOW, but that's the equivalent of a girl talking to her ex about her new boyfriend.

The second one was just a woman who's Christian views I challenged and she felt uncomfortable and blew me off. Yet, still wanted me to be an orbiter in our college classes. When I dropped the class, other classmates said she was upset I didnt tell her. She began ignoring every time we bumped into each other at campus. By this time of us not talking, I had already discovered MGTOW and woken up.

I just am ready to accept my mistakes not too women,but to anyone and just repent. I'm letting everything go and just preparing myself for life. I took this semester off to better myself in school and help get a better car, etc. Why would I want women to take me steps back.