I'm depressed, but I don't believe I'm suffering from depression, at least the sort defined by medicine. Sure, maybe my brain and body chemistry is off, but I believe its the result of being relatively intelligent, surrounded by assholes and able to see the underpinnings and goings on of our civilization and how fucked it is. Not some medical condition. So I don't seek treatment. As a consequence, every day is a living hell of being drug through an oblivious cucked world and I'm in a position where Ive been essentially stripped of my kids and income after a divorce and I'm being forced to produce for a world that doesn't benefit me anymore. I produce to avoid harassment. Not to get ahead. I just want out of this country. I love my kids and I don't believe I would leave them despite how little I get to see them and how bad I feel society and people treat me, but I still desperately want out. I honestly don't think I can do another ten years of this shit.

Who else is in this boat?