I'm not sure I'll ever be able to get over the disappointment of waking up from the red pill. I wanted so much to be a father provider of a happy family with a loving wife and children. And it was all just a lie, and my dreams stolen and shattered

It's been 6 years now since I stumbled upon red pill, and I am successful in other areas of my life, but it feels empty. Yet I can't see females anymore as I was once indoctrinated to believe. My biology and conditioning draws me to them, but my rationality is both disgusted for them and sorry for them.

I want the lie that was sold to me, and I don't think I can truly be happy or fulfilled without the lie, but it just doesn't exist.

I have a lot to offer, but it's just wasted among an infinity of shortsighted, narcissistic, ungrateful children.

Biological evolution is a cruel, cruel bitch.