I'm not sure if I even want to be in a relationship even if a hyperthetical unicorn came along because I have a desire to hurt women the same way they hurt me. I want to turn a women down and watch her cry and go through everything I go through when I fall in love. I don't know why but modern women are so shallow and brainwashed that I would rather learn to love myself as I am and focus on being happy. For example, getting the job I want instead of the job that pays well because I won't have a family to take care of.

I don't know which group I should be associating with, they both are pretty hostile towards each other. Any thoughts?