Im 21 and with that im very young i think. I got redpill and mgtow by default having 2 ex girlfriends. Even when i didnt made that much horrible experiences such as cheating or stuff like that (well they maybe still did, but didnt tell me then, so yea dont wanna hear it now months/years later).

Now im at a depression point in my life. I left the business school, i dont know what i wanna do in the future (was going into media, but nah...) and now im clueless, moneyless, without a girlfriend (which is good now, will stay that way), no driving license a a lot more problems.

Well im young, i was focused on girls too much - but now im working my ass off (found today a job!) and will achive a lot more. Also hitting the Gym.

Im 100% sure i dont want a marriage, a girlfriend (sex / prostitutes are okay) or kids for ATLEAST (maybe forever) the next 15-20 years.

But still im asking myself sometimes:

- Would i be even good enough to get a girl? (maybe its just lack of self confidence now. I had a lot some months/years ago, but in my situation... even woman are staying better in life than me at this age. I dont even have a driving license... and woman would expect a car at this age etc...)

- Would i be a good fucker? I had enough sex (300-400x minimum) with them, but what i mean... what happens in 5 years when everyone makes experiences, but i decide to stay single + mgtow. When i go for having sex in some years i wont have gained any experiences (probably from hookups but yea...) so that would also make me kinda nervous or maybe also a bad lover then. Lol.

Its just that thought:

A lot mgtows say they dont need a girl and avoid them. But how many of you are even in the decision for a girl?

I know im not ugly, i can get a girl if i take in some effort, but they never really want me that much. No one is texting me, no one is looking that much at me and stuff like that.

TL:DR + Question: Do you think sometimes about the female validation and your own spot as a lover or stuff like that?

I mean a lot here say they dont want and need woman, but i think a lot of us dont even get attention from them anyways. lol.