I used to be really into MGTOW after I broke up with my 3rd gf and decided to just date around when I started college at 18. I developed an attraction to Asians since I was about 14/15 and met one at my job at a cafe when I was 19.5. She's my girlfriend at the moment and I feel sort of fucked... before I met her I had a decent sized savings and portfolios on robinhood and crypto worth at about 800ish total. And my normal checkings which I would have 300 to 500 maintained weekly after expenses.

The first couple months of dates I paid for 90% of the food and everything. She is 3 years older me so she graduated before I have. She invited me to her graduation party at the club and I got in a fight with a guy that was twerking on her lmao, keep in mind i was wasted af. We all left the club and the next day we didn't talk or whatever. I felt bad but that guys was her friend ig anyways. I ended up buying her a graduation bear and she accepted my apology. We eventually continued with the dates paid for. Eventually my accounts start to dry a little bit but i don't give it much thought bc I'm using all these CCs. Well I rack up about 1k of cc debt by before I'm even 20. I got a new job at the beginning of the year and by this time my asian gf has been working a good job for awhile. I'm her first bf ever and it's kinda cute that she makes things for me but... I feel so trapped bc everything I spent on her and then her eventually spending on me has passed up on at 5 grand each PLUS did I mention I'm a college student with a bad job. Eventually she asked how I'm gonna pay for summer school and i told her with my first student loan, she said no that's stupid I'll let you borrow money. She convinced me and I owe her money.

Like a typical women she wants to find someone with money NOW and one day said she wasn't happy. She said I could pay her back whenever but she's thinking about breaking up bc I was treating her bad. She ended taking it back but I feel trapped in this relationship.

She's a nice girl. Has never been with a guy before me, has good job, pays half the time, and just treats me out bc she knows I'm in college without money. My concern is if she caused me this much stress, grades dropped, debt increase, constant neediness. What can she do in the future...? I'm trying to find a $18 an hour job do get rid of my shark loan quickly.