Hey Brothers, This is long.

I am a 21 old year guy from India. I came to this subreddit by chance and started to love this place. I was already maintaining distance from girls because of their stupid mindset and not to mention their love to accuse us for sexual harrassment.

I wanted to share my feelings and wanted some guidance. The reason I started my journey as so called MGTOW was, I really loved a girl and she knew about my feelings. She never respected me and played with my feelings. I was ashamed of being myself and till today I have a feeling that I am ugly. She was in for money & looks ( the so called love ) and I come from a middle class family where I don't get money to spend on luxuries. We spend on what we need and not on wants.

I was in for her for 10 years. All my school life. Getting out I started seeing a pattern among them, I did get attracted to other girls but they were the same. Some gold digger, some wanted from a fling even when they had a boyfriend. I felt disgusted. That's When I Started Avoiding Them.

Now I am in college and I don't even give a shit to girls but here comes the problem, Deep down inside I love talking to them, love to make them laugh and be attracted to them. I still have a need for a girlfriend. But I don't want to fall in the trap.

I want to learn how to really GO ON MY WAY. Avoid to talk, Avoid being attracted, and only FOCUS ON MY GOALS. I really need to learn this and I hope you guys would help me to learn how to really become a MGTOW.

I have also been attracted to the idea of NOFAP.

Your comments and guidance will be hugely appreciated.

Thank you.