Gents,

I hope we are well. I had a question that has been gnawing at me the for a week.

Before I took TRP, I was an alpha turned beta bux which lead to my 'soulmate/oneitis' ending the relationship 1.5 years ago.

This is turn, gave all the power to her, since she needed me less. Now I feel that I can never 'get' my power back since GMOW.

I'm at RP Malaise stage yet can't shake off this feeling of not being the powerful person I once was before the relationship as once I realised female true nature. I'm no longer chasing for it. However the ex won't being GHOW (hypergamy/biology) like I am.

She walks away unscathed due to my 'undying love and commitment', yet here I am, from ashes to phoenix, to just bird.

It's a loop.

Thank you always in advance for any advice/suggestions.