Some context here. I was married young. Had a few kids. I ended the marriage after 15 years because I was miserable with my ex. Got taken to the cleaners with alimony and support payments. I’m a professional with above average income.

Since divorce have dated a lot. Two serious relationships. One I ended because she wanted kids and marriage. They second one didn’t want marriage and kids but I ended it, we got back together and then she recently ended it and ghosted me. That’s another story.

So to the point now... I’m single again. A little damaged from this breakup. I understand MGTOW and I’d say I’m more purple pill in the sense I like to date and have relationships but at the same time it drives me crazy that I need this. After this last breakup I realized that I need validation from women. I don’t know why. That’s for a therapist I guess. Maybe insecurities. But during my last two relationships I was wit very young and attractive girls. It was an ego boost. I felt like the man. And then after we breakup I immediately feel this need to go date and get that validation again.

Would appreciate advice on how to break this cycle and not feel this way or at least how to start reframing.