Plain as day.
For a while, I’ve been living life on autopilot. Working 2 jobs. Going to school. Doing an extensive certification. Busy busy. Been complaining a lot. Hate my corporate America joke. Hate the people. The yellow haired feminists. The cucked soy boys, the boomer blue pilled fags.
I have been reactive of everything in my life. I complain I don’t get enough time to sleep. To think. To read. To relax. I’m constantly moving and worrying. Worrying about my future.
What if I get kicked out? Or fired? Or it never goes anywhere? I’m wasting my time? I’m doing things I don’t want to do? I could be trying to have my own business instead of this.
All I want to do is slow the mind. I meditate, but it hasn’t helped me be more objective in life. I want to stop being reactive and not feel like I HAVE TO do these things. I want to learn to take things slow, relax, and go with the flow. If I happen to get fired, or fail a class because I was overwhelmed so be it. I don’t want to be stressed 24/7 though. And feeling like I am doing things I don’t want to do.
I just want to strive for self-knowledge, objectivity in seeing the world, understanding myself and going for my goals. I feel though that I am just like very one else. A cog in the big enormous wheel.
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